I'm scared

I fear my family

If I wasn't born into their lives would they still like me?

I fear my friends

Are they with me because they feel like they have to be? Do they wish I would leave them alone?

I fear there won't be any elephants left when I die

I like elephants. I feel like they matter even though some people think they don't. Why do people think they don't?

I fear first impressions

Do people really not like me when they meet me? Is that even something I can change?

I fear I'll get sad like I used to

Could I even handle that?

I fear graduation

Then what? I don't want to leave this part of my life. How are people not afraid of that?

I fear not graduating 

I can't even imagine the disappointment

I fear being ungrateful

I need to appreciate this more. Appreciate you more. Appreciate everything more

I fear missed opportunities 

I should have done this. I should have don't that. Should have tried. Why didn't I try?

I fear death

Not my death, but others. Yours. Theirs. My friends and family. I'm afraid every day that something will happen. Every minute someone's late is another scenario where I don't see them again

I fear how anxious I get

Will I ever calm down? How do I relax? Will I ever be able to enjoy anything without worrying about the next moment?

I fear how afraid I really am.



I really am

here

 

What's love?

What is love?

Love is life

Love is the little things you think go unnoticed

Love is when you don't care if they go unnoticed

Love is when Mom wakes up with you in the morning, just to say goodbye when you go to school

Love is work

Love is a turkey tomato avocado bacon sandwich

Love is sacrifice

Love is forgiveness

Love is imperfection

Love is kindness

Love is real

Love is here

Love is ours to give

Give Love.

Interlude (That's Love)- Chance the Rapper

Alive

How I know I'm probably alive

• I can feel myself breathing.
• My feet are cold
• My music isn't playing as I write this and that makes me upset
• I get upset
• Girls make me scared sometimes
• I'm afraid of new people
• I eat more than I should sometimes
• My head itches
• My eyes hurt
• People make me laugh
• I can taste how good ice-cream is
• I'm really anxious
• I chew my finger nails and they grow back
• The burn on my arm itches
• I love the fall colors
• I can see and think how cool the sky always looks
• I feel empathy
• I feel sadness
• I feel happiness
• I feel rain
• I feel sun
• I feel

I am alive. I am here. I am ready