Um

I don't know how I feel.
Well
I kind of do. I feel tired and anxious.

Mostly anxious. I think I'm always anxious.
My stomach always has nervous butterflies.
It feels like they're biting me.

And it hurts.
And I'm nervous.

I know who I am. I think. I don't know who you are.
I think that scares me, but I'm not sure.
Usually talking to strangers is easier for me than talking to friends.
But some of you strangers are my friends.
Hmm.
That scares me.

But I think its okay to be scared.
There's no shame in fear, unless it holds you back.
It won't hold me back.
I feel confident. I'll try.
I'll do my best.

Um.

I'm Japhy Ryder.